5/31/10
Where you came from will get where you are going.
So over the past couple of days I have been going through some strange emotions. I have been learning that when you put on weight your fat stores memories. Or as brain pickers (psychiatrist) say that your fat remembers moods and as you lose the weight you can remember the depression that you were in that caused you to gain the weight in the first place. This is the reason why so many people can do good for a few weeks or months and then fall right back into the same patters they were in before.
I did not believe any of this until yesterday. Before I always thought I was just week and didn't have the will power to be successful. But yesterday I went through a real funk. It started off as missing my parents and then turned into being mad at them for not taking care of them selves and teaching me the correct eating and working out habits to be successful and then moved into a happiness this morning because it made me realize all that I was going through right now is because of what my parents taught me. I realized that because I am changing my future, my kids will not have to go through what I am going through right now. They are going to have healthy parents who will teach them good habits.
I know that it is good to focus on the good memories which is what I do most of the time. My parents were two of the most interesting, odd, crazy, loving, fun, spontaneous, caring, generous, and faithful persons to walk the earth. I am very grateful for the time I did have with them. I guess my point today is that we sometimes need to focus on what they did wrong and use it to make you stronger and to teach you what to do right. I am grateful now for everything they did do and everything they didn't do. It would have been easier if they had taught me good eating habits but it is making me a stronger man to learn them on my own because now I will never forget them and I will be able to use this to help many people in the future. I want to use it to help parents who are making the same mistakes change so there kids do not have to lose both their parents while they are still in their early 20's.
I love you guys ant thank you for all that you are doing for me. Thank you for your donations, your prayers and last but not least your motivation. It is forcing me to face the future and I am doing it with my head up getting ready for a bright future.
I did not believe any of this until yesterday. Before I always thought I was just week and didn't have the will power to be successful. But yesterday I went through a real funk. It started off as missing my parents and then turned into being mad at them for not taking care of them selves and teaching me the correct eating and working out habits to be successful and then moved into a happiness this morning because it made me realize all that I was going through right now is because of what my parents taught me. I realized that because I am changing my future, my kids will not have to go through what I am going through right now. They are going to have healthy parents who will teach them good habits.
I know that it is good to focus on the good memories which is what I do most of the time. My parents were two of the most interesting, odd, crazy, loving, fun, spontaneous, caring, generous, and faithful persons to walk the earth. I am very grateful for the time I did have with them. I guess my point today is that we sometimes need to focus on what they did wrong and use it to make you stronger and to teach you what to do right. I am grateful now for everything they did do and everything they didn't do. It would have been easier if they had taught me good eating habits but it is making me a stronger man to learn them on my own because now I will never forget them and I will be able to use this to help many people in the future. I want to use it to help parents who are making the same mistakes change so there kids do not have to lose both their parents while they are still in their early 20's.
I love you guys ant thank you for all that you are doing for me. Thank you for your donations, your prayers and last but not least your motivation. It is forcing me to face the future and I am doing it with my head up getting ready for a bright future.
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That's tough! Sorry about your parents Gene! I think it os awesome how you are turning the negatives into positives though! Keep up the work, you are doing great!
ReplyDeleteGene - It sounds like you are going through a lot of self-discovery and reinvention of yourself. I am proud of you for sharing your story with all of the downs (weight loss) and downs (struggles). You are an inspiration to many and personally one of my heroes. Be kind to yourself Gene and know that there is nothing you can't do! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteGene. what up dude! Keep up the good work and its awesome as well how you tuned a negative into a positive and keep your mind focused on what your doing and you will do great. I can't wait to see ya soon man and I am right there with you. I am pushing and wokring out myself to get ready for the wedding in october so if you ever need a word of encouragement or anything let me know we can help each other be accountable.
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