What I mean by this is I had come to a point to where I was just existing. I had lost the drive to become great and that scared me. I would go to work and then come home and watch TV or just hang out on the computer. Also I had let my self image get so low that I didn't see myself worthy of being great or accomplishing anything worth while. I had let myself be broken by what society thinks is successful or beautiful.
I want to let you know that we are all beautiful. God showed me through revelation on the next few days, that no matter how we look or where we come from we are all beautiful and special in the eye's of God. We have to get to where we are happy with our self based on who God wants us to be and not what we think the world wants us to be.
Health and being fat is a whole different story. Our bodies are a living Temple for God so we must take care of them. This is something that I have been in denial for years. If yo don't love who you are as a person you will never be able to succeed because you will never feel worthy. Your self image will drive you to become who you want to be. It is driving me to become a better person and achieve the goals that I am going after because I know I deserve it. I didn't feel worthy enough to focus on myself for years but now I know that I am worthy and I owe to God. So are you. God loves you and you are beautiful the way you are but you owe it to yourself to be healthy. Chose to live.
I will weigh in tomorrow and will post my results. Have a great day.